Fri, 20 Jul 2007 04:30:57 GMT

I could barely run for one minute straight. I spent most of the time walking. At least I finally have the shoes to do it! I will try breaking out my brother's PS2 and play some DDR.. I used to be able to do that for hours. It'll probably take me a long time to be able to get a AA on what i used to call the 'heart attack song' again, but I'm shooting for it.

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 23:50:28 GMT

Hello and welcome to my weight loss journal. I've finally decided things are totally out of hand and I have to do something about it. The other day I was out shopping with a friend and said to her 'I'm not trying on any more clothes until I've lost some weight.'

For the past few months in particular I have felt really disgusting. I've got so much fat -- i feel huge -- and new stretchmarks have been appearing (i've always been prone to them) even though my weight gain has been very gradual. I'm sick of it. I've been depressed, and it's not just because of my weight, but I feel that going out and doing things will make me feel better as well.

I'm planning on starting by running around the block a few times every day or every other day. It doesn't sound like much, but when you're an absolute depressive couch potato it's something!

I've got a couple problems. I think my main one is that I'm a total bump on a log. I don't know when I started gaining weight (a few years ago I was at a decent weight -- 140 -- and totally fine with it. Over the past two years i managed to get up to over 180 lbs! A few things happened during this time, including me getting older, graduating college, dropping out of my social scene, getting and losing various jobs..) but I need to do something about it.

My second problem is that I eat poorly. Now by this I don't mean McDonald's or any such thing.. I've been a vegan for a long time -- about 8 years? I just don't eat very well. My favorite food is avocado maki, but that shit's expensive. I mostly eat bagels with vegan creamcheese. I eat a lot of carbs. I will try to cut back but i don't know what to eat.. I guess fruit and vegetables, but I am not looking forward to it. I will of course allow myself the occassional spaghetti.

I do, however, drink plenty of water and always have. I don't drink soda except maybe once a month. I generally don't eat a lot of sweets.

I will not be weighing myself every day. I hear that weight fluctuates so much it is easy to be let down. I will weigh myself once a week.

I have generally low energy, which is something that has always held me back. It's a vicious cycle. I have hypothyroidism, but am on medication for it.

Current weight: 183
Low weight: 120
High weight: 185
Short-term goal: 165
Long-term goal: 125

I will be keeping track of my food intake and exercise using FitDay.

Vigilance